Hot Air Balloon Fiesta' 13 ^.^v

There's a tv show about the guy who went to work at different places, there was once he worked as the balloonist's assistant, helping to set up the hot air balloon and driving the tourists around. After I watched that, I just had the strong feeling of wanting to have a hot air balloon ride :P

I remember I did see the advertisement of the Putrajaya Hot Air Balloon Fiesta 2013 last month, but with all the revisions, homework, trials in my mind, I totally forgot about it. Credit to Chun Kit, who reminded me of this fiesta :P If he didn't remind me of that, I think I wouldn't have been there haha.

They only allowed 300 people to have the ride for each session, and there are only morning and evening session on each day. Therefore, we needed to go early and queue for the tickets. Considering about the weather during these days and his time ( I won't go if I'm alone haha), going on a Saturday morning would be a better choice.

If you could see how I talked to him, you would know how much I wanted to go, and yea lar, it was because of me which made him wanted to go too :P Since we have already planned to go, of course I would like to be one of the 300 to go up for the ride haha. And so, we went there very very early in the morning. I think I better not to tell what time did we reach there, when I came to think back about it, we must be crazy that time lol! I can only say, the workers came at 5am and people started forming a queue by that time~

Of course, we got the tickets!! I tell you, those people are not any better than us, we were at the same level of craziness XD The others went there early in the morning too, for those who were in the queue but out of the 300 people for morning session, they continued staying in the queue and intended to wait for the evening tickets to be sold, which they would only start selling at 5pm!!

We bought 3 tickets together, one for Kyle. Sadly, Chun Kit couldn't join us as he needed to help his mum in the early morning, followed by a survey at Tropicana. Kyle came around 8am, and they went on to take a lot of pictures. I was standing at a side, watching how they set up the hot air balloon and anticipating to go up :P It went up to about a bit more than a tree's height and it could only accomodate 3-4 people at once.

Finally, it has reached our turn. I felt a bit warm as we were standing under the fire. The feeling of being up there was fun, enjoying the view of the sky and the ground. Although it did not fly like the hot air balloon at the other countries, which requires you to pay few hundred bucks for a ride, I was satisfied haha. I just wanted to get up and experience the fun of it, and under a safety condition. The day before it, my mum was telling me, "wah, you sure you dare to go up? what if it explodes like what happened in Egypt?" I was like, er..... but I still feel like trying..... =X

Got to see a lot of hot air balloon from all over the world ^^

Thank you very much for bringing me there,
accompanying me to wait throughout the whole midnight :)

 

 

With that,

I mark another new experience

in my life :)

 





Dunking session - RAC Subang's style :P

After sooooo long, RAC Subang had their dunking session today for all the December'12, January, February and March'13 babies~~ Obviously, I was one of them who kena T.T

Well, it was fun haha! A face full of cream, until I couldn't see anymore. Then, had a great bath after I went back to hostel ^.^

From before, to after, to the group pic with all :)

 

Interested in watching how we got dunked? watch this ==> Whole dunking process @.@

Creamy face,

Creamy hair,

Joyful night :D

 



学涯中的三个她

今天下午，ms sathya, KDU Pre-U's Head of Academic Department 就很突然地和我说了一段话，想把这份感触记载于此。

（我在和朋友聊天，等待着下一堂课的开始）
S   : Alicia, come here a while.
me : okay (die lor, did I do something wrong? @.@ walked to the corner...)
S   : Alicia, if you need reference or testimonial for any internship, please ask from me. I will want to write for you.
me : Har?? why out of a sudden...... (stunned)
S   : Why? because I know how much you have done for MKM, as well as the fun run. Just let me know when you need it ;)
me : oo, OK! thank you ms sathya!

对这突如其来的对话感到有点受宠若惊， 哈哈！果然，在我的每一段小学，中学及大学先修班的生涯中，都会有这么一个她。她们都是学校的女老师，皆未婚（应该）。她们，都是固执的，都是强势的，可为了学生，也是可以付出很多。

小学时候的她，是凌老师，我四年级到六年级的班主任。她不怎么跟随精武的“文化”，就是有自己做事的一套方式。她向来都很看重我，连选了我当两年的模范生，还因我选择当学长，不当她的班长而“责问”我，哈哈！犹记得，她就是那一位在SARS 期间，知道大马旅游业严重受影响后，就来问我 ：“晓靖，你家庭经济状况还好吗？如果有什么需要，记得告诉我！” 当时的我没说，其实我真的很感动。想起了在小学时期发生的好多故事，她还在我失控那段期间，不带任何条件地坚持相信我。

她，曾说，第一次看到我，就有种直觉我很特别。

当然，我的中学生涯中更是多了好多位老师来扶持我，可那一个她，还是属于 ms margaret，我的女童军老师。她，一个我对她没有爱也没有恨的人。身为一个女童军，我的确必须要很感激她为我们所付出的一切。看见她孤独作战，累得在我眼前流泪，我，难道真的不会有感觉吗？可是，也应该没有多少人知道，她在我背后所做的一切吧。她曾经一度地让我不想再回到童军那里，背着我擅自强硬地改变我的路线，让我对很多把希望投在我身上的老师和学生感到很愧疚。我，辜负了他们对我的信任与期望；她，剥夺了我自由选择的权利。如果有机会，我真的很想说，我会饮水思源，可是那泉源，并不只限此地。如果是你对我的信任不够多，或许这是我做得不够好的错，那就请不要对我说你梦见我和对不起。我尚且还小，但我会思考，我对你的袒护和真诚，多少分真假你心里有数，是你们以前所做的让我对此地产生反感吧。我选择储存就仅有，最初最纯的美好时光，还有我与一群伙伴和学妹们的回忆。（离题了=.=）

她，也曾说，我是一个特别的女孩。

到了伯乐大学，原以为在这地方平平凡凡地度过两年就是了。哪知道，还轮不到我休息，又被盯上了，最后还领了一众举办义跑。期间，发生了好多好多事情，很累。时间，很短；雨，却一再地下。大家都看见我消瘦了（好像是一件好事 XD）。Miss Sathya 是直接管理我们的老师，她，很严，要求很高。我，在责骂中成长了。有一次，她对我一人说，有什么需要帮忙就告诉她，如果她无法当我们的依靠，那这职位就不需要由她来任职了。可我还可以从她身上要求什么呢，那段期间，她也必须独自和病魔战斗。

三个女人，三个故事，三分扶持，三行泪水。她们三人，给了我不同的启蒙，也让我更为刚强，继续往前走。

我记得祢说过，祢是不会让我一个人独自作战的。祢说，我的人生不会一帆风顺，必会经历百般挫折的测试。我的人生，是其他人无法走的，因为这是祢给各个世人独特的安排。祢必不叫我受试探过于我所能受的，所以今天，我还屹立于此。犯错了，祢会对我小惩大戒；做对的，无论世人如何阻挡，祢仍然会给我意外的奖赏。

祢的恩典，如繁星般数不清 :)

我在想，

大学的时候，

会不会也是有这么一个她？

RAC Subang Medical Camp 2.0 :)

This morning, I went to Puchong for the Medical Camp 2.0 together with my fellow Rotaract Club (RAC) of Subang members. Last year, we have organised one for the Myanmar Refugees Children at Tesco, so this was our second time. This project is meaningful and it actually helps the children a lot.

These bunch of kids have to leave their own country due to the country's political conflict and unstable economy, so they normally travel to different countries including Malaysia and US, under the care of UNHCR. As in Malaysia, the reason why they are known as refugees is because of the government does not recognize them, so that's where some non-profit organizations come in to help them, such as Shelter Home and Rotary, providing them with shelter, basic necessities as well as a place for education.

So, early in the morning, Aaron fetched me to the meeting place to take goodie bags that we have packed for them. Then, we departed to their school to set up everything. We did dental check up, basic body check up, basic eye sight check and personal hygiene demonstration for them. Initially, I was assigned to duty at the GP (General Practitioner) station, then I was transferred to the other side to help to look after the kids. Until the second dentist has came, my task was set to be her nurse - a dentist nurse XD

I never know what do I need to do as her nurse or even how to "draw" some patterns on those "boxes". I only remember when I was having dental check up during primary school, the dentist used to draw some lines and some circles on those rows of boxes which I could never get what those mean. Today, I finally could understand what they mean. She taught me once before she left me doing it myself while she was doing the check up. She was going faster and faster, I had to be very concentrate in order to catch what she said. She said I'm intelligent as I learnt very fast, can consider applying a part time job as a nurse hahaha!

Those boxes stand for your teeth for upper jaw and lower jaw, left side and right side. Then, the dentist will check your tooth one by one, alphabet stands for baby tooth and number stands for adult tooth. From there, the dentist will know the growth of your teeth, then they will compare it with your age to determine whether your teeth are growing on the right "pace". They have different signs to represent teeth that need to be pulled out or need filling, and also the sign to record holes between teeth.

Throughout the medical camp, those kids really did behave well. Those who are elder, like 10-13 years old, they would take care of those younger one, lead them and ensure that they stay in a group. When I was helping the dentist, there was a little girl holding her younger sister's hand, then she led her sister to sit on the dental chair, told her to open her mouth and accompanied her throughout the whole process. This little thing that she did touched the bottom of my heart.

The girl was only 9 years old, see what most of the Malaysian kids are doing when they are at the age of 9, holding their parents tight when they visit the dentist? These bunch of kids, they do not usually have the chance to live with their parents. They are not orphans, but their parents are working hard out there, either in local, Myanmar or other countries. What left with them are teachers, those brothers and sisters around them. They have a very strong sense of caring towards each other, even though they are not from the same family. If and only if they are as fortunate as us, having to grow under the love and protection by our parents and have a proper education, they will be a bunch of good future leaders.

In Malaysia, a lot of big organizations will not choose to help these bunch of kids as they claim that why are we not helping our own Malaysian kids first. But I would like to say, a life is a life, it makes no difference between the future of a Myanmar kid and the future of a Malaysian kid, they are still the same. I do understand that to a certain extent, people will tend to leave the best for their own people, but still there are others who need us too.

All in all, the medical camp was a great success, a big thanks to the organizers and those who helped out throughout the whole process. May God bless the future of these children, take care of their journey ahead of them. Please lend Your great hand and lead them throughout hard times, make them stronger and more resilient. May these children remember how much have they went through together, hold tightly to their friendship and do not lose the sense of caring, that's the gift from the God ;)

It reminds me of Peter Biak, a 16 years old Myanmar teenager that I met during Medical Camp 1.0. Sometimes, he would text me and chat with me before he flew to US (I think he is there now). He once told me that he misses his parents and brother a lot. They are working out there and he only got to see them once after a long time. He promised me to study hard, so that his parents do not need to worry about him and he will have the ability to take care of them next time. A 16 years old guy, he has a will, a will to stay with his own family and no longer being called as a refugee.

Time to reflect on yourself, 

the society is calling for your help,

what can you offer? 

FGA PJY BBQ~

Today, I attended the BBQ session organised by FGA PJY. Hmm...... second time joining their activities after the trip to Gua Tempurung? haha! This time, Yusong invited Seng Yew to join us too, it was because SY once told YS to invite him to their camps and activities.

I went to their youth session in the afternoon, then followed them to go to Claudia's parents' house directly. Sengyew was already there when I reached, another meet up with old friend~ Looking at those people who set up the fire, my brain started to flash back those moments when we, a bunch of Girl Guides, used to gather at a dark corner (because the school do not on the light =.=), set up the fire and have our BBQ session. We could not see whether the food was fully cooked, so we used to eat a lot of "burned" food. The time when we were together was really fun, even with the dirty face and hands, and a strong smell on our clothes.

Seng Yew chatted a lot with Yu Song and I. He was so excited when he told us the story of his trip to Taiwan. Although he was mad at some of the parts due to someone, but I could tell he did enjoy a lot during the trip, especially when he said he wanted to live in the Watson in Taiwan LOL! For me, he did not change that much, still the same person as he was in high school. Nice to chat with, and a caring person.

Tonight was a great one too, good food, good people, good fellowship. Esther and Xin Ying purposely prepared half melted mash mellow for me, aunty JieLi was taking food for me too, not to forget about him who cooked the chicken wing for me when I said I wanted to it. They treated me really good. Being with them, I do need to worry that I got nothing to eat, they will surely feed me with lots of food until I say stop haha. We had worship session and games, and ice-cream at the end of the night :P

Cannot eat any more than this already @.@

A Healthy Week ;)

I had a very healthy lifestyle this week, 3-4 badminton sessions in a week :D

As it's getting closer to the exam date, we are becoming more and more active in sports, I guess that's how we release stress haha. Of these few sessions, the most tired one would be today. I played for 2 hours at Taman Megah with Yu Song, then another 2 hours at Sterling with Lian and Syahmi.

My leg produced salt!! 

Look at these 3 shuttlecocks, you can imagine how terror our game was

I......
lost 2 kg

wheee~~~ :P

A bit of each day ;)

Have been owing this site some "reports" that I'm supposed to complete~ The best resolve --> combine all in one XD

Last Tuesday was the closing ceremony for KDU Sport Challenge 2013. This year, I only got one medal, which was the bronze medal for Netball~ Hmm..... I still think the design for last year was better hahaha!

Then, on Thursday, 7th of March, we have celebrated our 3rd year anniversary ;) I was too happy blogging about the offer from Warwick and nearly skipped this memorable day :P Time flies, we have been together for 3 years~ The reason why we set it on 7th of March was funny, I shall write about our story some other time, though Zhi Min has actually shared part of it on her blog. 

A cheese cake that he has made for me, his first time XD I would still call it a cheese pudding, because it looked like and tasted like a pudding hahaha. I guess he needs to go back to his sifu - Ming Ming to improve his skills or even learn how to make more other desserts.

Not to forget about the outing with my old friends, those who are by my side since high school. They are Zhimin, Junlyn and Huiwen. We had a great dinner at Sushi Zanmai and nice ice-cream as dessert. We chatted a lot about the past and current life. It seemed like everyone is having a pretty good life now, except for the fact that we need to study hard and prepare for the upcoming exams haha.

It has been a long time since I last met with them, especially for Junlyn and Huiwen. Reminiscing about the past, there were still a lot of things that we couldn't forget. For this, I have to admit that both Lyn and Min have a really good memory, they could really remember even a little thing that happened during the past. We had a fun-filled life throughout the 5 years in CHS, that was the place where each of us has grown up. Talking about relationship, I did shared about mine. I did not tell them, actually they were the first and the only few people whom I told the start and the meaning of 7th March to haha. 

With Zhimin and Huiwen 

With Zhimin and Junlyn

There goes my great great week ;)

与文字的偶遇

某天，在大众书局逛着的时候，看见了这本翻译成华文版的书。转到后面去，看见了这篇那么美的文字，就在这里分享一下 ;)


爱你，已是成年往事。
我们最终难逃陌路相向，不得已转身天涯。

我独坐在异国的台阶上，
看阳光穿透午后的闷热，自树木的枝桠间倾泻而下。

我们曾说，爱至死不渝。
我们曾幻想，在彼此的体温间了却余生。

而今没有你。
我在台阶上安坐，任阳光闪耀，岁月蹉跎。

花开的光景璀璨如钻石，弥足珍贵。
蝴蝶赶着渡过沧海，仓促地抖开翅膀。

那一天，我坐在布满苔藓的台阶上，
轻轻地想念你。

你在的城辉煌灿烂。
而我的废墟上只有残落的花瓣，狼藉斑斑。

文字中带了沉沉忧伤，

却真的很美~

A night with Your surprise :')

Oh my God....... I have never thought that I would be that touched and grateful to receive the offer from the University of Warwick. The whole process happened within ten minutes when I was alone in my room and everyone else was asleep. Do not ask me why am I not sleeping at 4am in the morning, I just feel like writing down my feeling now~

All along since I started to complete my UCAS application, I have been setting my mind on LSE, one of the London Universities as well as the top school for BSc Accounting and Finance. What's wrong with a girl who was born and raised up in a city to aim for a life in such a big London city for her three years of university life right? Looking through the syllabus that LSE provides for my course, I had a feeling that I seriously wanted to enter this university. Their syllabus are more than just teaching you what you need to know, they include how to apply it in real life although their syllabus do not really give you exemption on ACCA or ICAEW professional papers. Well, I was not aiming to take that either.

So, I started to do research in order to get some inspiration in writing my personal statement. Browsing through all the information and analysis, I found what I want and the funniest thing is, I might be going onto a pathway that I once refused to. I have forgotten since when I started to set my mind on becoming an entrepreneur and one of my businesses will be a restaurant, a F&B business. I like the feeling of creating new venture, creating new value out of something as well as transferring your skills to others through sharing and education.

Being a successful entrepreneur ain't that easy, it requires a lot from a person and experiences in workplace are definitely required. When I was doing my research, I actually found out how a study in ICAEW can benefit one like me. Putting aside the fact that a lot of the top successful businessmen took up ICAEW or ACCA, by just looking on the future after the studies, I can enter an audit firm and start off my career life with being an auditor, completing my tasks by different companies. Well, I'm not saying that in order to become an entrepreneur, you must first take the professional papers, but I have been hoping to have the chance to experience, or at least to know more about how other big companies operate before I start to build my own business. It seems like taking this up will provide me the great chance and it's definitely better and more efficient than I change my job once in two years hahaha!

And so, I was thinking to take that up after studying in LSE. Until that day when I received rejection from LSE, honestly I did feel disappointed. It seemed like the want to study in London will not be fulfilled. Luckily the reason for them to reject me was due to my personal statement that did not demonstrate enough focus or the future planning after my degree but not due to my results which I could have work harder on it. I wrote about how important is the degree and how it can actually benefit to me for my future career as an entrepreneur. I guess they must be expecting one to write more about accounting and the future of an auditor or financial analyst. Well, I was the one who chose to not write that much about accounting because it's totally not what I'm interested in, so I could not brag about it too. I missed the chance because of my own choice but not due to something that I could have done better, I guess this made me feel a lot better.

God treated me really well, for He did not leave me alone in this battle. He put people around me, telling me that God has a better plan for me. Then, my friend started to tell me how good Warwick is, for it has the best research center in the UK and it provides you with the most exemptions in ICAEW. I went online to search about it too, it stated that ICAEW has a partnership with three top universities in the UK, which are Manchester, Cardiff and Warwick. Furthermore, Warwick was ranked 1st for degree in Accounting and Finance. He showed me all these after I got my rejection. Yea, I admit that I have been putting my main focus on the wrong aspect, wanting to live a city life and I nearly chose the wrong university. He got no other way but to take away my offer from LSE. (But LSE is really a very good university, both Warwick and LSE provide very good education and they are both top universities in the UK. It truly depends on yourself where do you want to study at as both will equip you with different skills and experiences, shaping you into a good graduate and highly efficient employee. The most important thing is still your attitude in learning and how you bring up yourself throughout the three years.)

So, I switched my target to Warwick, waited for more than one month for the reply. I knew that was normal, but the process of waiting was just too long. Refreshing the same page every midnight and morning just for the email from UCAS. Until the Petronas officers came to our college for engagement session, we still have not receive our offer from our first choice of university. You might be asking why do we need to worry, Petronas only allow us to apply to the top 20 universities in the UK and what's more can they ask for if we get our offer. But the truth is they are asking for diversity, they do not want to put so many scholars in one university, meaning that you might not get to enter to your first choice of university even if you are offered a place. Luckily, Mr Rasyidi said that they would not dictate that much. Last Sunday, after we had our church classes, my church friends prayed for me. They prayed to God to give me the best to me for He knows the best for me, taking care of me as I'm His daughter and fulfilling my little wish to study at Warwick. Then, Dayana received the offer on Thursday midnight.

I waited again for a whole day, hoping and praying that I will be the next one to receive the offer too. I reached home at about 12.45am after the celebration of our 3rd year anniersary (oops~~), the email has not come yet and I fell asleep with the thought that I have to wait for one more day. Surprisingly, I woke up at 4am. Guess what, the alarm of my digital watch woke me up =.= The purpose of the alarm was not to wake me up, but if you own a digital watch before, you would know that anyhow it is, you need to set a random time for the alarm. So, I opened my eyes and I could hear the voice in my mind, telling me to open my email. It must be Him, and so, I took my phone and did what He told me to do.

And arrrrrrrrrr................. there was a new email and it was the "status changed" notification from UCAS. Went to open the UCAS track --> saw the conditional offer --> speechless. I could not say anything else but just "Thank you God!". For some people, getting an offer from Warwick might not seem to be a big deal. But for one that has been longing just for the reply to come, worrying that if I get it late, Petronas might not allow me to be there, doubting my own ability and wondering if I will really be the one whom they accept, I felt extremely excited, with a little bit of surprised and a lot of gratefulness!

My dear God, seriously, thank you very much. Previously, I just saw what I really want, but You have a great plan for me and it's much more better than what I demanded for. I know I should have trusted You more on this, I should have just waited patiently for Your answer and Your surprise to come, but I did not. I worried, I doubted myself and I prayed for many times, I hope that I did not annoy you =P They were right, You treated me just like Your little baby, holding me tight since I came to this world. Thank You for all that You have done and all that You will be doing for me. I will live a great life and be the model of others, showing them how great are You in changing one's life. Thank you God <3

The cross and the moon

I will look on to You,

You lead my life, 

not only when the day is bright,

but also when I fight against the darkness ;)

昨晚，星光璀璨 **

昨晚，难得有如此雅兴，在晚餐过后，和 Lian，min wen 坐在游泳池旁一边吃冰淇淋，一边谈天。我记得，我们以前的学哥学姐常常都会这么做，结伴在泳池旁一起聊天到深夜。或许是我们这一代的华人比较少，或许我该说能够谈心的人并不多吧~ 大家似乎还是比较在乎自己，或是根本不觉得有那个必要。

我们从坐在椅子上谈着缺少了的第四位，渐渐地到坐在地上，把脚浸在泳池里。在那星星满布的夜空下，潺潺的流水声轻微地伴奏着，大家都不知觉地多了一份感性。昨晚，夜很深，周围很静，只有那管理员在周围巡逻。我真的真的好久没有看见那么漂亮的夜空了，很多星星，仿佛是为了这一晚而现身的，很美，很美。。。

整夜，我们的话题就围绕在感情内。以前中学时期，年少无知的我们学人家说爱，结果却爱得了满身伤。大家起初都似乎很有感觉，也很向往那在一起的时候，可当问题出现时，却因为是第一次，所以不知所措，所以伤了自己伤了对方，结束了感情。听着 Lian 说他的故事，听着他说 “我当时真的很笨，真的真的很笨” 时，突然好有感触。

大人总喜欢说，中学时期很多小孩子都是情犊初开，想要尝试谈恋爱的感觉，却都还没搞懂什么是爱。可是，有很多时候，在年少轻狂期所做的这些 “傻事” 却是很难忘的。无论是好是坏，都会有一部分是你常会缅怀的，至少我是如此，他们也是如此。如今，站在这稍微成熟的成长阶段，再一次看回感情这门事，思想观点可真的不一样了。

如果你问我，三年来我们是怎么过的，我会说我们有自己独特的方式吧。或许很多人会好奇，那么少见面，行吗？我会说，双方懂得平衡就好。我们本来就是个比较不喜欢受约束的人，而在这段时日大家也想好好地和朋友们一起玩翻天。这一方面的拿捏，他真的做得很好，连 Lian 也赞他好，哈哈！

两个人走在一起的时候，主要的就是找个适合大家的平衡点吧。如果你确定了他将是你唯一所爱的人，那就不会有在一起久了会厌倦或是越长久越发觉不适合。很多人会说，结婚是爱情的坟墓或是在一起久了，爱就没有了，只剩下对对方所应该负起的责任，我却不怎么赞同。责任和爱是有联系的，如果不爱，哪来的责任？如果在一起只为了责任而少了爱，那岂不是很累吗？难道在外工作所要负起的责任还不够重吗？正正是为了你爱他，你才会欣然地履行你的承诺啊~

感情这门学识，还真不简单。处于不同阶段的伴侣，一直都是在不断互相学习，直到闭上眼睛的那一天。朋友，如果哪一天，你找到了属于你的那个人，请紧紧地抓住他，知道吗？ ;)  不然就不爱，要爱就要爱到底！

有时候，两个人在一起，

简简单单就好 ^^

原来，是祢 :)

自从来了教会，开始读圣经，开始上主日学，我才慢慢寻获以前怎么也无法解释的答案。有时候，我也会混乱，究竟是我把所有的刚巧联系在一起，把根本没有关系也扯在一起呢，还是其实是祢在给我的提示？总觉得，这世上若不是祢，应该不会有那么多刚巧的吧？

今天上主日学的时候，我们学习到关于圣灵。以往，我总会说我从小身边就有个天使，他无时无刻都陪伴在我身边。每当我有太多无法向人说出的话，我必说给他听。总觉得我体内一直住着另一个我，一个我常强调要守护的，那最纯的我。一个我做错事会责备我的良心，一个会把我坏念头打消的正直，一个不断扶持着我的坚强，一个让我看见这世界有多美的纯。因此，我常常都会有平安，因为我有他与我同在。

上课的时候，当梦洁给予越多讲解，我就越深感其受。如果说，根据新约，圣灵会与每个相信主的人同在，也必不会离开，那么我长久以来所认识的那天使，是圣灵吗？太多的相似，让我觉得就是他的感觉。太多的不敢置信，为什么我从小就可以获得祢的眷顾。。。

有时候，这种感觉很奇怪。是我真的对祢有着小孩子般的信心和盼望，还是我真的想太多？读回去以前的文字，蕴含一种非常庆幸有祢同在的感觉，一种觉得祢时刻都在守护我的信心。我知道我不应该质疑，而日子久了，祢也会慢慢地揭晓谜底。可是好奇心却不断驱使着我一再地想要探讨那答案，想要知道究竟是为什么祢会那么地恩待我。

这样兜兜转转又过了好几回，或许最后的答案很简单，那就是因为我是祢的女儿嘛~ 我只要读着祢的话语，追随祢的脚步，相信祢，然后把自己全然交托，对吗？就像小时候的我，就像还没察觉那是祢的时候，就那样单纯地相信祢，单纯地信靠祢，不为了什么，只为祢是我永生的主，对吗？

他们都说，婴孩时期的基督徒的祷告，上帝必允许让它成真，因为他们有着小孩子般的信心，是真的吗？那我所祷告的，祢听见了吧？:)

A: 你不是说上帝是听祷告的吗？结果呢？也没有回应你？

B: 不！他听祷告的，每次都听，而且绝不落空！
他回应了，只是这次的答复是 ：不可以！:)